I've done my best to keep myself busy today. I did more today than I have in the last week. I did what an good Italian mama would do -- I cooked -- a lot. I made beef stew, white rice, egg noodles, chocolate muffins and an apple crisp -- and that was all before noon.
I also did 4 loads of laundry, some other cleaning and of course played with AJ.
I did all that I could to try to keep my mind off of tomorrow.
I did get all of your phone calls and well wishes and I appreciate them more than I can tell you -- but the more the phone rang and the more I thought about it the worse my anxiety got.
I just put the finishing touches on the new resource list for the hospital. I'm so glad it's done and I think it's pretty good. I hope it helps at least one family in the future. If that's the case it'll all be worth it.
Surgery tomorrow is 11:45am. We're going to the cemetery tomorrow morning and then heading to the hospital.
I'll update when I can (and I'm not too drugged!) :)