Six Months

How is it six months already? It's unbelievable how much has gone on in these six months.

I've been to more doctors and had more tests than I can count. I've had 2 surgeries. We finally got answers as to what happened. Changes have been made. New doctors. Better info for new angel moms. New connections. A new drive. We learned to smile again when I never thought we'd be able to. We've laughed. We've cried, a lot. I became a better mom. I'm a small business owner. We're fundraisers.

One thing that never changes -- I miss Ryan just as much today as I did 184 days ago. I would go through these last six months all over again if I could get a chance to hold Ryan in my arms just one more time. I'd study every inch of him, trying to remember every detail. I'd take more pictures and I wouldn't have let him go that night.

I miss you so much sweet boy. I love you today and always.

Love,
Mom