I don't know what it is these last few days but I'm missing Ryan like crazy. There wasn't a trigger that I can think of. Maybe I'm just at that point of the grief cycle. It seems that it comes in waves. I'm good for a while and then all of a sudden, without reason or warning that cloud comes back. It's as if my memories are more vivid...like I realize how much we lost. It's so hard to explain.
All I know is is I miss my son.
I love you sweet boy. Forever and a day.